The week is not quite over, but with payday and dr. appointments looming, the next two days are likely to see me missing, so here’s how it’s gone so far.
I decided to make my morning hours from eight to noon, which is proving…interesting, as it’s been years since I had a schedule at all, let alone such an early one! But I’m sticking to it, which is making me go to sleep earlier, thus giving me better “sleep hygiene” as my respiratory therapist says. Stopping strictly at noon is hard, the tendency to check email that one last time, or put out one last post…yeah. I’m working on it. So far I haven’t gone more than a half hour over, and I always remind myself that I can get back to it in 5 hours.
My night schedule is five to nine thirty, the half hour being a dinner break. So far I’m managing to keep away till then, using the hours between to write in my books or do a page or two of the lyrics workbooks. Yes, it’s still on the computer, but I’m keeping a strict “no email, no way, no how” policy in effect.
That’s basically it for Mon. Wed. and Fri. Tuesday and Thursday are -supposed- to be no computer at all days. :( Not so much so far…Wednesday being the one example. I tried to contain myself to surfing things connected with my other chores/work…craft sites, learning how to write lyrics sites, etc. But that kept leading me around to blogs I wanted to follow, and then to how-to-blog sites, then…yeah, you get the picture. I’m going to try harder next week! I’d say I’ll go sit in the library and write…but they have free, good wi-fi! *rolls eyes*
Wish me luck, y’all. So far, so…mediocre!
“I am a drinker with writing problems.”
That made me laugh out loud. It showed up in the random quotes about writing that WordPress loves to shove at me…but this time, it stuck. Not so much the drinker part, but the part about writing being the stronger addiction. I’ve been “a writer” for about ten years now. In my own mind writing poems wasn’t true writing…writing is books, and books are stories. So I’ve got 4(?) books barely written, less than short story length still, and as much as I love them, I’m not sure I’ll finish them. It’s not that I don’t want to…see the addiction comment above…it’s just that I don’t know -how- to write. So far I’ve cobbled together scraps and bits of dialogue that slip into my head, chapters of rambling ridiculousness, and bits and pieces that’d make a better comic than book. If I could draw at all. *laughs*
And now, putting my poems out there, and receiving the advice and commentary on them, I have a reason to neglect my poor books even more. I mean, I don’t have -time- to write. I have all this blogging to do. Right?
Wrong. I know what I need to do, it’s just pulling together the discipline it takes to do it. I have 4 areas of “work” right now, and at least 12 hours a day to do them in. First and foremost is the poems that keep sleeting through my brain, and getting the old ones collected and put out. Second is learning to write lyrics, a possibly lucrative-ish outlet for my poetic talents. Third is my writing, and/or learning -how- to write and then applying those lessons. Fourth is crafting/jewelry making/clay work etc. For the last few weeks, it’s been nothing but poems and occasionally a bit of prose, and answering, reading, following and liking…which is threatening to become more addictive than anything else I do. ;)
So my goal for this coming week is to sort out 8 hours every other day for writing…poems, blogs, books, whatever…and concentrate on my learning exercises and craft making the other days. Hardest part for me is remembering to -only- do 8 hours. I know I can do it, I just have to start. And now that I’ve put this out here for everyone to see…hopefully it’ll help me keep to it! ;)